Rating: 5 Stars
This book took me by surprise. It has a rather hideous cover but the most beautiful writing. I have never read anything by Autumn Doughton (if this is not a pen name, high-five to her parents because the name rhymes) before – Geez, I missed out! This author has such a wonderful way of expressing herself. Reading this book is like having a full course dinner after being on a diet for a month. Therefore I will in the following review even quote this amazing author – which I rarely do. This review contains minor spoilers:
This is what the official synopsis reads: Gemma Sayers has spent the last six days rotting in a hotel room, wallowing in a noxious combination of gin, junk food and self-pity. She’s no stranger to disappointment but nothing could have prepared her for the chaos that unfolded when her celebrity boyfriend publicly humiliated her. Now the fairytale is officially over and Gemma is determined to put the past behind her and strike out to find a new dream. Just a few teeny-tiny details to work out: she’s currently broke, homeless and unemployed.
Landon Young has his own worries. Surfer by day and bartender by night, he doesn’t have the interest or the time to be anyone’s happily-ever-after. Weighed down by the memory of what happened two years ago, Landon can barely keep his head above water.
What I read: If I’d be a writer I’d want to write like her!
In the beginning we meet Gemma, who is heartbroken after she walked into her (now ex-) boyfriend having sex with a waitress at a toilet of a restaurant. While she was waiting for him (at the dinner table of said restaurant). She is devastated and hides in a hotel room getting drunk.
What no one wants to point out is that some caterpillars don’t become butterflies. Some caterpillars become moths.
I think we’ve all been there. Alone. Heartbroken. All sad, all bad, no sunshine. And therefore I found it really easy to connect to her.
The thing you have to keep in your head is that this isn’t a romance novel. You don’t have to play the part of the sad princess who needs to be rescued after an evil with locked you in the tower. In this life you save yourself, Gemma. And if, along the way, you see something you want? Then fucking take it.
Wise words! And so she does. On the way she meets Landon. Landon is often referred to in the book as “damaged goods”, which is a rather fitting description of him in the beginning. But in my opinion he lets his guards down pretty early so he is not an obnoxious hero. Rather someone who carefully guards his heart and emotions. He is one of these brooding, don’t talk
at all too much type.
Pain doesn’t really go away because someone kisses it better. Sadness doesn’t recede because a person posts an inspiring quote on your Facebook wall. Grief doesn’t sink into the shadows the moment the sun comes up. You can’t sleep your way through misery.
This is what he is like. I couldn’t stop picturing him in some kind of 90s grunge music video when he started rambling like this. But he is a sweet character (and of course terribly good looking). By the way it is a double POV story.
So what do we learn from this book? There are decent NA writers out there such as Autumn Doughton, a heart-break is not the end of the world but can be the beginning, don’t rely on a man to rescue you, do it yourself. Good messages with a book don’t you think? Oh and it is really heart-melting romantic, btw ;).
Let me finish this review with yet another quote. This is the description of the heroine. If you like this description (or it sound’s somehow familiar to you *wink* *wink*) then you will like the book (I promise):
I’ve discovered Gemma’s brain works differently than most brains. She skips around a lot – bouncing from idea to idea the way other people scan through the radio stations, trying out different songs until they find one that fits their mood (…) Out of the blue, she’ll start up a conversation that ended two days ago, or she’ll suddenly describe a book she read three years ago, or tell you a random fact about chinchillas.